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It's late and I can't get any sleep.

I regretted not spending my March holidays studying and now, I'm lagging like way behind. Feels like shit naowzxs. Zzz. Mórever, I took early leave home last thursday bcus of some temporary headaches. I had to okay.. I don't have a choice. So on that thursday, I missed all my tutorials. Now, I'm trying to like arrange w all th subject teachers t make up for tht bloody thursday. I feel damn.. effed up ):

Lectures. Tutorials. Lectures. Tutorials. Suddenly, my life is all about lectures and tutorials. I miss having fun. I miss slacking. I miss sleeping as early as 10 or 11. Basically, I miss my life.

I want my life back.

I've turned in to a retarded nerd fuck.
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Kay, I'm just eff-ed up laah. I've not cleared my doubts on Chemical energetics and I'm not that good in Chemical Bonding, plus, tmr's my chemical bonding quiz. Not t mention, my Mathematical induction ? I've not even gone through th tutorial privately w my teacher yet and I've got a quiz on thursday.

It's just god damn bloody rush. I hate rushing my studies. I really hate it. I regretted doing that for O's. It's really awfully annoying and painful.

Okay, I'm done ranting.

I "love" school.

I just wish that you're here and that I can trust you again like before. The things that you do.. is just god damn mean which doesn't look like the person I know you were.