Doubts

Got a sudden strong feeling to pin down my current thoughts.

I'm accused of being a person who constantly rejects her friends for an outing. As disappointing as it sounds to me, I find it difficult to believe. Firstly, I love my friends, why th fuck would I turn them down for a gathering, that is if I had forgotten. Soz, I told myself I had to do something about it.

Bought  a fucking bambi notebook to jolt down my activities ): But I think I'm still getting th complaints. Fuck. Now that school is starting, it's even harder to catch up w my friends. I wish I knew how t manage my time well /:

Speaking of which, I'm really worried about this coming semester. New batch of freshies coming in, new people, new faces, more judgements being made. Okay not about the freshies part, just partially. I know I'm not supposed to let this affect me, but I can't control my emotions. Bid for a business mod cus I really dk which mods t take and all I know is that I wna declare finance as my second major. It's a more sensible move right.

Anws, I'm really gg t work fucking hard and be th most productive bitch you've ever met. Need to harden th fuck up and increase my weight lifting.
Lastly, I'm really glad I got t realise my passion this summer. I never knew I was this passionate about coffee making until I worked at a cafe. Learnt a lot of things from senior baristas and though it was only a few months short, this experience has been by far th best of all. Despite not travelling overseas that much as compared t other students(cus im a poor fuck), I feel that i've picked up a fucking valuable skill.

Looked back at my aug 2013 post, I had a goal listed as being a part time barista, and there I did it (: Although not a v professional one but I still made it (: Checked my bucket list,, like finally.