*Emo shits. Do not bother reading. Long post.

Pissed. Great, I finally disappointed my Dad unwillingly.

I feel lika loser now. No matter what, I have to get in to any fucking JC and get a stupid degree to surpass my cousin. I feel stupid competing such stuffs.

However, if my mom and sister weren't looked down by my relatives,(my assumption) I wouldn't have to suffer so much for this shit. Am I overreacting ? The world's all about friendship and money.

I've got to get in to the medical industry to start my career. I was wondering whether or not to drop to combined Science and get an A1 for O's. If I do that, it'll look nice on my O's certificate, but it also shows that I'm not cut out for some Science shit.

I've always wanted to be some plastic surgeon or veterinarian or maybe some psychologist or accountant. Right, I'm fickle-minded.

The conclusion is, I want to earn big bucks.

Honestly, I'm more interested in accountancy and psychology which is in the arts stream for the courses in JC.

So right now, I'm in a fucking dilemma /:

Stress ! Stress ? Stress. Stress, "Stress" Stress: 'Stress'

I wished that I didn't had to make decisions in life, that way, life rocks. When I broke down, I felt like talking to her. She understands me a lot. But, I had to restrict myself from dialling her number. I had a hard time.

I've learnt that I should treasure certain things before they slipped away. Frienship. Relationships are burdens -,- provided if you get the loot, you get the happiness. Lol.

Poo-ee. I'm supposed to be studying for my Cheena test tomorrow and I'm still using the computer. Guilty, oh my god. Anyway, I'm not in the mood now.

Worst of all, this guy keeps irritaing my ass, asking me rhetorical and stupid questions. I know you're reading this, I'm just being nice by not being 率直. Hehe ! I learnt that word from my Chinese lesson. This is so chim. Wooo !

SIAN, I was being praised by my teacher. Lol. Lao shi says that my Chinese not bad sia. Actually I can go to A class and join xians lo, just that I don't want. Lol. I'm hiding my talent ><

Not only is this thing bothering me, I didn't see my eye candy when I went for tuition today. Sian. When will he ever show up for tuition ? Or does he goes for like 1-2 hours ? Or he doesn't go on Wednesdays ?

Initially, I've got free time after remedials, since the teachers are gone, and I wanted to go home and rest. Instead, I deliberately attended my tuition just to grab a glance at my eye candy.

Does he attends his tuition in the early afternoon ? /: I hope not. Lol. Sian lei. Really very sian sia.

It's been a long time since I saw him. The last time was during the holidays lo. Wah lau, why must lao shi end her tuitions in the evenings on all weekdays ? /: SIAN.

Lol. Anyway, I didn't lose out that much. It's not like I like him.. pussffftt.