I'm utterly disappointed in some of my grades.

Especially my social studies. Why am I so stupid ? Honestly, I screwed up like shit. I studied properly but I didn't answer the question properly. I was lost during exams and I just bombed out those medisave stuffs when I'm suppose to write pro family measures !

Well, I did wrote some pro family measures, but there wasn't any explanations so I got 4 marks out of 12 marks. Pathetic loser.

Secondly, my chemistry. After knowing the answers, I looked through the paper again and I realised that the paper wasn't that hard. Afterall, it's just that I studied the wrong thing. Plus, the paper required a lot of thinking. Was I too lazy to think when I sat for the paper or my mind is just stupid enough to let me bomb out those ridiculous answers ?

You know what, I might as well shuff my head in to the damn toilet bowl and flushed it down. No wait, instead of my head, I might as well put my brain. Honestly, I felt like I was dumb and was just born yesterday.

Anyway, went out with Yolanda and Yuenyi today. Played audition. Lol. It's been a really long time since I touched the outram lan's keyboards. It brings back many memories. & I wish I could turn back the time. I really missed those times with Yolanda, Yuenyi and Meiling.

As we grow older, we changed. & we were never satisfied in whatever we have and we'll always desire for more. True. I just passed my Physics on the dot and I wasn't really that happy but was quite happy to get at least a pass. Thank god, it's the first time I passed in my Physics in an examination, excluding my common tests. Oh, my common tests suck though.

I'm going to work hard and get back my sec2 grades. I love my sec2 grades luh. They're like 1o times better than my sec3 and sec1.

During my primary school days, I was never once in one of the top few pupils when it comes to grades. I was always at the border line. Forever at the border line for my maths and science. However, my languages were much more stronger but still not strong enough.

When will I ever be born to be a genius and have good grades without even putting so much effort ? Sometimes, I wished that I died and that all my worries would be gone. But, that would be running away from my problems. & my soul will never rest in peace even if I really died. Lol.

If I were to die.. I would want to be dressed in a pair of black skinnies and a plain black top. & I would want to have my naval pierced. Hmm.. also have a mickey mouse tattoo on my finger and some spiral ones at the back of my hips. Plus, I must be wearing a pair fake eyelashes and black contact lenses. Oh yeah, I must be wearing a pair of black heels too !

It would be so damn nice to dressed in black in my dead body. Lol. I love black >< Sometimes, I wonder how would be like to be a wandering spirit. & it would be so damn cool to scare people ! Look at their face, AHHHH. HAHAHAH !

Okay, enough of my nonsense. I shall be signing off now.

I'm crazy at the moment. Ciaos : D