I'm so troubled.

Why does he have to leave so soon ?

I would give up everything for him, including my life. Please, just let him live longer. He barely reached 90, 100. Not even the age for him to see his great grand daughter/son.

I want him to live longer by a few weeks. I'm not asking for the sky but just extra time. Reasonable request okay.

I just want to satisfy his every need before he leaves.

I hate to face this reality. Why do such unfortunate things befall on me ? I've been staring in to blank space for like the past few hours. Wtf. What's going to happen if he really leaves ? My god. I can't bring myself to imagine it.

Sigh /: I love grandpa a lot.

I'm willing to give up L4D, my studies, my friends, my time.